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It's about time...

Wow. I havent been on this thing in an extremely long time, but I decided it was my time to resurface. We'll see if I continue, or if it was just the act of myself being extremely bored at work and having nothing left to do for the day.

So for those of you who I do not see in my everyday life a little catching up is in order.

I graduated from college and am officially a full-time graphic designer. I love my job and dont ever plan on changing it. I'm making a living doing exactly what I want to do and truly feel like the luckiest girl on the planet.

I have lost friends along my path to realizing exactly who I am, and at times it hurts, but what I've learned is that those who have stuck through are the ones who are meant to be there. I now know that the friends I have obtained along my journey will stick with me forever.

As in the love life category. I am 100 certain that I have found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. Justin is amazing and I truly could not ask for anything more. About a year ago, maybe a little longer, he joined the coast guard and was stationed about 3.5 hours away. We have continued to make this work. Some cant believe it, but when you find that person where you know it's right and worth risking everything for, you can make anything last. So we have. We see each other every weekend and honestly that is enough to keep my heart going. I know that it is finally in the right place and I have given it to someone that I can trust it with.

I know there is plenty more that I should update on, but to be honest, those are the 3 main aspects of my life besides my relationship with my mother. She is my backbone and I am thankful everyday that I am able to share my life with her :)

Alright, well enough catching up for now. Hopefully I will no longer be a stranger, but we'll see as the time goes.
hey kids, i know im never on here. im sorry...so lets begin the update.

i am back at school and have loved every minute of it. this is truly my home, with my friends. no fighting, no boredom, no pain. its like being in heaven, thats the best way to explain it. i am eternally happy.

i am doing well in classes. i am actually kicking ass this semester or atleast trying to. ive decided to get my ass in gear so that i can bring my gpa up because having a 2.95 just isnt cutting it when i cant apply for many scholarships that are much needed.

i went to my diabetic doctor and he told me some ways to help manage my blood sugar counts a little better overnight so that i can hopefully extend my life a little bit. so thats is always exciting. oh yeah, and then he insisted on telling me that i have gained weight and need to start controling that. he told me that i dont appear to look fat at all...i mean wtf? i weigh 130, thats not large by any means and my stomach is about as flat as they come. i know when im gaining weight, i did two summers ago and lost it all. i was very proud of myself for keeping that down. he thinks that just because i gained two pounds since the beginning of school that i am going to continue this trend. WTF!?

i have fallen completely in love for the first time and every minute it gets better. i have never been this close or this comfortable around someone before. i am so happy with him and everything that he does to make me happy. i would literaly die to make him happy. thats how insanely in love i have become.

i have realized that maybe incubus wont be my favorite band forever after all. lately ive been leaning towards mae and jimmy eat world. now dont kill me karen for this statement, please.

i have seen some pretty good movies lately, but cant seem to remember any of them except for underworld 2 because i just saw that a few days ago.

i have become friends again with my ex. i am able to handle it now and we actually talk and hang out and its not weird. its nice to have him as a friend and in my life again because he is an amazing person with an amazing personality. hes just not the best person romantically. its nice to finally be at a safe level with him again. its very refreshing.

i am really excited for valentines day. this is my first time ever actually having an actual valentine. and jamie plans to have something up his sleeves. i always claimed to be that non-romantic type, but im slowly learning everyday that i am indeed one of those stupid girls that get all gushy about love and whatnot. and i apologize for those of you that hate to hear about this holiday, because i have been there the first 18 years of my life and know exactly how it feels to loathe such a holiday.

i have become less addicted to myspace. it might be because i dont have the time for it anymore, but i just feel healthier. haha

i went clubbing last week and actually enjoyed myself. i never liked it before, but i actually did this time and when i get more money i intend to go back with everyone again. we took my parents spare minivan and shoved 15 some people into it. it was fantastic and one of the best times of my life!

i looked back over last semester and noticed how many new friends i have made and it feels great because i love every single one of them so much. everyone is so original and our group is so diverse. i love it.

i am trying to figure out how to work this digital camera and the programs on my comp so that i can start making a photo album online and finally let everyone see what good times we have here.

im trying to think about what i have been up to and i cant seem to remember much of it....as a matter of fact, thats all i got.

so thats it. im done.

cya kids.
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well the time has come for me to make my journal friends only.

if you want to be added, leave a comment.

ok so here is my short little story.

court had these pajama pants that are amazingly soft and comfortable...these pants are now mine...hehe. i ripped them a bit at the bottom this weekend when i accidently got them caught on the air conditioner vent thing on the floor...bullshit, this i know. i then attempted to sew them up (let me mind you...i am not a very good seamstress). the pants remainded sewed together until this evening when i sat on the counter to eat my second dinner for the evening with kel. i was very upset about the whole ordeal and now i just ripped them some more as i got up from my computer chair. this whole situation has been very upsetting and stressful. *tear*

oh yeah, does anyone know how to sew by the way?
karen's lj said that i had to....

ask me 4 questions.
any 4, no matter how personal, private or random.
i have to answer them honestly. i have to answer them all.
in turn, you post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.
*Thirteen random things you like*
1. Music
2. Movies
3. Drawing
4. Singing
5. Laughing
6. Staying up late
7. staying at court's all weekend
8. driving
9. lightning
10. thunderstorms
11. snow
12. spending time with my friends
13. being happy

*Twelve Good Friends*
1. court
2. jenn
3. karen
4. teresa
5. kellie
6. matt
7. erica
8. kerry
9. nick
10. heather
11. stump
12. danielle

*Eleven Good Artists/Bands*
1. incubus
2. sugarcult
3. J.E.W.
4. the strokes
5. the killers
6. oasis
7. graham colton band
8. fall out boy
9. green day
10. the used
11. my chemical romance

*Ten Good Movies*
1. trainspotting
2. dodgeball
3. fight club
4. seven
5. sixteen candles
6. 13 going on 30
7. a walk to remember
8. saw
9. office space
10. garden state

*Nine Things About You Physically*
1. I have hasel eyes
2. i have brown hair
3. its semi long
4. i have a tiny upper lip
5. i have long legs
6. i have very little breasts...lol
7. I have a lot of freckles
8. my nails often have charcoal under them...damn being an art student
9. i have a little nose

*Eight Favorite Foods*
1. mashed potatoes and gravy
2. Italian food
3. cup a noodles
4. Chicken
5. gushers
6. cherry pop tarts
7. pringles
8. resee's peanut butter cups

*Seven Things You Wear Daily*
1. ear rings
2. shirt
3. necklace
4. pants
5. shoes
6. socks
7. make up

*Six Things That Annoy You*
1. people that dont know when to be serious
2. people that are incapable of being funny...ironic isnt?
3. my hair
4. cait's boyfriend!!!
5. when people dont say what they really mean.
6. having homework over spring break

*Five Things You Touch Daily*
1. My hair
2. My face
3. My toothbrush
4. my computer
5. my cell phone

*Four TV Shows You Watch*
1. the OC
2. Dawsons Creek reruns
3. One Tree Hill
4. Desperate Housewives

*Three Celebrities You Have a Crush on*
1. Brandon Boyd
2. Johnny Depp
3. Michael Ian Black

*Two Things You Can't Live Without*
1. My friends
2. my family

*Name One Thing You Want More Than Anything*
1. to die happy

Mar. 3rd, 2005

Fill it out because i said so...please.

I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:
Who are you?
Are we friends?
When and how did we meet?
How have I affected you?
What do you think of me?
How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
Do you love me?
Have I ever hurt you?
Would you hug me?
Would you kiss me?
Are we close?
On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
Am I loveable?
How long have you known me?
Describe me in one word.
What was your first impression?
Do you still think that way about me now?
What do you think my weakness is?
What about me makes you happy?
What about me makes you sad?
What reminds you of me?
What's something you would change about me?
Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

Mar. 2nd, 2005

I have finally got all my shit done for my drawing portfolio...it took forever because you know me...im a procrastinator. It feels great to have all of that stuff off of my back. Most of my work is finished now and so i dont think that i will have any homework to do over break. How awesome is that...i actually get to enjoy myself over break, well atleast when im not working.

Alright, thats all the time i have. Cya kids.